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i go through phases sometimes where all i want is for things to go back to the way they were. it's silly and pointless but there you have it.
talking to d last night was, as he would put it, bittersweet. it still bothers me a little when he tells me about his girl problems. i hate that it bothers me. it shouldn't. but it does. and i hate it. i don't even know why it still bothers me. it's very confusing. the only thing i can think of is that once you really really love someone, you can't really unlove that person. i guess no one has thought about implementing ctrl-z on love yet. (*lightbulb* i can make millions!)
i like d's dad. he sounds comical and apparently, he really likes me. i've gone to dinner twice with the man and two years after d and i broke up, he asked about me and on finding out i'm going to stanford in the fall, told d to get his post-doc at stanford. hee hee! i'm blushing as i type. but too bad d is anti-calif. oh yeah? well calif is ANTI-D! HA HA! :P
sometimes i think that long ago someone finally proved that the earth is round and good for us because that means even ships that passed each other in the night for a brief moment can sometimes find each other again if they would both just keep sailing
then sometimes i think maybe all i need to feel better is to get another piercing. nothing more cleansing than punching another useless hole in my body. oh. yeaah.
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